The Diary

The Diary

Monday

It’s quite late and I’m tired but I had to write. I had an epiphany today. I’m happy. We’re in love and it’s all good. Well, kind of. It’s a bit boring. We're settling into a routine. It happens I’m told but should life be like this? I went walking while I was pondering this and thought I’d try and change something. And something (everything) comes down to sex in a relationship really.  Without it you’re fucked – or not as the case may be. So today I thought I’d try something different. No sex for the week. But to tease for a week could be interesting. How badly would you want something if it was withheld from you? An experiment if you will.

Tonight we went to bed and kissed. I kissed her with a lazy passion. It had been a while since we’d done that, just lying on the bed. Gently rubbing her back I could feel her getting turned on. I always get hard doing that so it was difficult, but I gently pushed her away. She had a slight look of surprise on her face followed by uncertainty. I said we were tired and rolled over.

Tuesday

I kissed her again tonight. Slightly more urgently. I held her head in my hands, rubbed the back of her neck more firmly, pushing her into me. She grabbed me, I was hard, so I pushed her hand to my ass. I love the feeling of my ass being grabbed. Slow down I thought. Kissing her cheek I rolled her over, her back to me. I kissed the back of her neck, the side. I lifted her shirt and rubbed her back. I kissed slowly down from her neck to her lower back then rolled her back again. I could see her exposed. I wanted her breasts. She has gorgeous nipples. I love sucking them. I love massaging her breasts. I love the feel of her skin. She looked down at me expectantly and I moved up to kiss her again. She had desperation in her now. She wanted me. I kissed her again and grabbed her ass. She groaned slightly and whispered for me to fuck her slowly. Again, I gently pushed her away and told her tomorrow. Swearing, she asked me what was going on. I didn’t answer, rolled her over and put my arm around her. She told me she was frustrated now. Maybe this will end up destroying us. I really want to fuck her. I really want to come.

Wednesday

We got into bed quite late this evening. She must wonder why I get up and write quickly before coming back. I don’t want to tell her my plan but she suspects now. Anyway, it was late and she was tired. I leaned into her and began kissing her neck again. Down to her shoulders, gently biting them on the way. I took her top off. She told me I had better be ready to fuck her tonight. It’s not fair apparently. I kissed her chest slowly. I love doing that, I love the feel of the skin and how it changes from taught to fuller as her breasts are greeted. I spend ages kissing around her breasts. I circle the nipples purposefully. I look up and she’s looking at me expectantly. I push her head down and tell her to close her eyes. To picture only the feeling of my tongue on her skin. Nothing else exists for her. She lies back and I flick the tip of my tongue on her nipples. I hear her intake of breath. She sighs gently. I push my tongue down hard, leave it there, letting her feel the warmth. Then I move my tongue, spending time on the same nipple. I repeat the same for the other one then sit up. She looks at me again and I tell her to close her eyes – thought for tomorrow, get a blindfold. I grab her breasts, loving the feel of them. I was so hard. Touching my cock would have been dangerous. I wanted her. I massaged her breasts then moved my thumb and forefinger and squeezed the nipples, the pressure becoming harder and harder. She cries out slightly. I don’t stop. Then I work my way down her stomach. She has a fantastic stomach. I use my tongue generously. I put my hands on her hips as I move. Holding her tightly. She has pyjamas on. I pull them down to expose her pubic hair. I kiss her pubic area. I spend my time licking the area to both sides where her legs curl into her. I stop and lift my head, making my way back to her. Breathing on her skin as I go back up. I spend some time on her nipples again and then kiss her. Like the other nights I roll her over. She asks me if this is some sort of game. I just smile. I think she gets it. She tells me she wants to come. I simply say no.

Thursday

When we got into bed she sits up and looks at me and asks me if we’re going to fuck tonight. I tell her maybe. I found one of those old blindfolds you’re given on airlines earlier this evening. I put it on her and she smiles. I kiss her lips. Run my tongue across them then stop. I grab her hand, kiss her fingers, then her arm. I was hard before I got into bed tonight. I move her hand to my chest. She feels my nipples then squeezes gently. God I wished I could have come. I move her hand down around my back to my ass. She obliges again. I let her feel me for a while then move it again. This time towards my balls. She grabs them, massages them and goes to move it up to my cock. I stop her and hear a frustrated sigh from her. Relax I say. Then I move her hand to the inside of my thighs. I struggle. I feel like I could come right there with the slightest touch on my cock. I stop them and guide her hand to her own breast. She feels it and I close her hand so the nipples are clamped. She squirms so I get her other hand to cover the other breast. The look of her playing with herself turns me on even more. I don’t think I can last any more days. Must be strong....  I then move her hands down to her pubic hair. I grab them firmly and move them between her legs so she massages the inside her thigh. She tries to creep across to her clitoris and I prevent it. I move both hands away and tell her to put them behind her head. She complies. My hand moves between her legs, fingers pointing down. I put it over her whole pussy. Covering her. My middle finger is on her clitoris. It’s pulsing beneath me and I increase the pressure. She cries out. I just leave it there. I wait a long time. She’s trying to move against my hand but still it doesn’t move. She’s very wet. I stop, telling her that’s enough for tonight. She playfully tells me I’m a bastard. My cock is still hard now, 30 minutes later....

Friday

(Written Saturday) We’ve been out for drinks tonight. We were both a little drunk so I was concerned about my regime. Maybe I’d try something different tonight. We get to the lounge and I start kissing her. Aggressively, taking her clothes off till she standing naked. I sit her down then take off my pants. Suck me I tell her and she starts pleasing me. Moving her tongue up and down the shaft. Cupping my balls while she does so. Then she takes me fully in her mouth and even though I’m numbed the frustration from the week builds up very quickly. God I wanted to come. I stop her and tell her to tease me more. She moves down and starts licking my balls. Taking them fully in her mouth. They ache. I want to come so badly so I stop her. Then I sit her down. I still have my clothes on. I push her back into the chair and lift her legs over my shoulders. She’s very, very wet. She tells me how much she wants me. I dive in. Forcing my tongue straight onto to her clitoris. She writhes, moving herself against me. It’s almost violent and I really just want to fuck her. I look up and tell her she can’t come. She’s genuinely annoyed and wants to know when the fuck she is allowed to come. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to do this when we were drunk. I’m sure it will be worth it.....?

Saturday

We were hung over this morning. Lying half asleep and not talking. It had been an odd week. The feeling of frustration in the air. No one wanting to say the first word. But not normal. At least it wasn't normal. We weren't like everybody else. Thinking she'd be annoyed I made the first move I kissed her shoulder. She turned away but I saw the slight smile as she did so. I ran my tongue around, nibbling as I went. I reached her neck and stopped, easing back and lightly brushing my lips against the nape of it. Breathing in, smelling, intoxicated with her natural scent. I stay like that for ages, breathing, kissing, slowly and gently. I moved my hand over her shoulder and around to her breasts. No stretching of time and teasing. Smooth and firm. Massaging her breasts, I enjoy the feel and the weight of them. Down to her stomach, again firmly, all the while on the back of the neck. I start using my tongue more as my hand goes past her pubic area and into the warmth of her legs. Inserting two fingers, I feel she's wet and I move them back and forward. No playing around this time, I'm in charge, moving with authority. My lips move to her neck, gently biting it. I can see her eyes closed, lips apart, breath coming quickly. My fingers move to her clitoris. Her body responds. I move firmly and quickly. I can feel she wants to come. I keep rubbing and I feel her building up, getting more animated as she does. Please... she begs. I stop. She groaned. Before she could say anything I start talking, just saying the first thing that came into my head. I want you. I start telling her how I love her body. I tell her how my cock feels like it could come with no stimulation, just at the thought of her right now. I tell her I would like to enter her. To fuck her. To be completely at one with her. And I tell her to wait.


Sunday


We rose early today so didn't get time to do anything. Her sister was having us over. It was a blur. I don't even know what was said. I couldn't take my eyes of her nor her me. She knew today would be the day. I hadn't told her but she knew. I knew I would fuck her today. The looks must have been obvious but we were oblivious to anything else. We made excuses and left early. A long drive back. We barely spoke. Hands on each other legs. Caressing one another as she drove. Like new lovers. Thoughts were going by so fast. All I could think of was her. We arrived home, quickly going inside. I grabbed her immediately in the kitchen. We kissed like we'd never kissed. Both completely lost in the sensation. Like first time lovers we tear each others clothes off. No fooling around, no foreplay. I push her onto the couch. We stop for a moment, staring at each other. I see the lust in her eyes. I feel my body aching. I enter her. We both groan. I almost feel like I could come straight away. I think she nearly does. I've never felt her this wet. Moving slowly together we keep kissing. Hands groping one another. We are completely at one. I feel nothing else but the feeling of her. My skin is electric, hypersensitive. We fuck faster. She's grinding her clitoris into my pubic area. I feel I can't stop. I've never quite felt like this before. I've never wanted anything more. My orgasm builds. And builds. My whole body feeling like it's dominated by cock. My balls are aching as my orgasm approaches. I groan. I can feel her beginning to climax. I let go, my body wracked in waves of pleasure as I come. It seems like I'm filling her competely, as two or three waves wash over me. As it begins to subside I feel her coming. She's screaming, her whole body arched. She grips me and I feel like I could come again. She's dragging everything from me. All of me is part of her. She holds me tighter and tighter. I keep slowly fucking because I don't know anything else. I don't want it to end.


It takes us a few minutes to stop. We lie there for ages. I start smiling and look at her. She opens her eyes and giggles. We laugh together. Happy.